If you follow me at all or have read a single sentence that I have written in the last seven months, then you know that my husband and I lost our son, Theodore, in February 2017. We suffered with incompetent cervix and delivered him too soon. Here is the link to our full story that I wrote for our local infant loss non-profit, Maddie’s Footprints.
In our grief, prayer has been difficult. Healing has been difficult. Shoot, even breathing has been difficult. I think I can speak for my husband and many of our loss friends when I say that finding the words is difficult when suffering with such grief. Music has carried us through the hard days. Christian music has made the most sense and has given us the words when our own words are lacking. But, all music has given us our sense of self, grounding, and just a general sense of uplift.
In walking down this dark road, we have come in contact with so many people who have been down the road before us or are just beginning their walk. The ones who have gone before us have been a lifeline. They have carried and supported us like we could have never imagined. And for that, we feel that we have an obligation to pay that love and support forward. After two of my husband’s Facebook friends posted about losing their babies, he told me that he wished he had a playlist to send out. Because in truth, there is nothing we can say to make it better. All we can say is, this music helped us and we are praying for you.
So, here I am with a playlist containing the songs that we and our village have relied on. This playlist, though, is not just about infant loss. It is for all of life’s obstacles. So please listen and know that you are loved and that you will make it through the storm.